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It’s Been A Whole Year

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This isn’t going to be a very long post, and I’ve spent the last few days putting off writing it but I know it needed to be acknowledged… Friday 1st December 2017 was officially a whole year since we started trying for a baby.

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“You’re Just Too Ashamed To Admit You Don’t Want Kids”

We start our fertility clinic appointments in one week..

Now that I’m back in the swing of things I think it’s time to continue with my “Things Not To Say” Series, and where better to pick up from than the one sentence that makes me want to scream until there’s no air left in my lungs. “You’re Just Too Ashamed To Admit You Don’t Want Kids” Continue reading ““You’re Just Too Ashamed To Admit You Don’t Want Kids””

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From EllanPaige to MeetTheWicks…

From Ellan Paige to Meet The Wicks

So you may have noticed that my name on here has gone from EllanPaige to MeetTheWicks. This change is because Mitch and I sat have been talking and we decided that along with my blog, the best way to get my message out there really is YouTube. Lots of people have said this to me over the last few months and if I’m honest I’ve been too scared and lacked self confidence.

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Preparing Your Heart For Something That Never Comes

preparing your heart for something that never comes

Infertility is tough, but what can make it even harder is holding  onto that small shred of hope. The hope that maybe the countless doctors are wrong. The hope that maybe just maybe you could be part of the small percentage of people who prove everyone wrong. The hope that one day you’ll get to hold your own baby in your arms. Sadly though I’m beginning to think that holding on to that hope is pointless.

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Mother’s Day

Mothers Day

It’s currently 16:40 on Sunday 26th March 2017, and I will be completely honest when I say I haven’t left my bed yet today. I don’t think I can. It’s Mother’s Day today over here in the UK and yet again it’s a weird one for me. It’s the third Mother’s Day since being diagnosed with PCOS, it’s the first Mother’s Day since trying for a baby and then being a given an official infertility diagnosis, and the first Mother’s Day not seeing my mum (luckily for me my mum alive and well, I’ve just moved away from home. I’ll probably Facetime her later but it’s not the same)

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Why I Choose To Talk About My Infertility

why i choose to talk about my infertility

Over the last few months I have been more vocal regarding my infertility than I have been over the last two and a half years, and honestly there’s only one reason as to why – I no longer feel ashamed… Okay that’s a lie I still feel ashamed, I just feel less ashamed. When I really think about it though, I find myself asking ‘why should I feel ashamed?’ and the simple answer is – I shouldn’t. For the last two and a half years I have well and truly beaten myself up over my diagnosis. I’ve asked whether it was my fault or anything I could’ve prevented. I’ve hated my body for ‘failing’ me. I’ve become scared of making it worse. I’ve found myself avoiding questions regarding my body and fertility. Mostly though I’ve felt ashamed because my body can’t do the sole thing we’re put on the planet to do. Reproduce.

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What Not To Say To A Woman Suffering With Infertility

what not to say to a woman suffering with infertility

Now it’s no secret that I have been very open and honest about my fertility issues, in the hopes that I can provide some help or comfort for someone who is going through the same thing. Whether that’s by helping them feel less alone in a very dark situation by seeing that someone else has gone through something very similar, or just by breaking the taboo barrier that is talking about fertility.

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